Dear Heavenly FATHER, JESUS, and HOLY SPIRIT,
I praise and thank you for the 36 years of life you gave our firstborn son, who was first Your son. We were blessed to have Sam in our lives. Through the good times and the challenges, we grew. May his life continue to lead others to YOU. Amen.
And yes, GOD is still and always will be good all the time !!! That’s not always easy to say, yet always true, especially in the midst of the storm.
“Faith is believing in advance what will only make sense in reverse.” Philip Yancey
I liked how Sam called his Mom, “Mother dear”, and me Daddio, hence Sammio. Sam loved me, and he loved Mom … more. He was a Momma’s Boy, and I’m cool with that. He really loved his brother as well. Sam and I had great times and trips together, including New York City, Las Vegas, Hoover Dam, The Grand Canyon, Red Rock Canyon, and many more places. We took our family trips and had one-on-one sessions. We were planning a trip to Niagara Falls. The highlight would have to be our four-day trip across the country in a hotel on wheels called … Amtrak. We had a sleeper car. It was well worth it. San Francisco to Washington, DC. I had always wanted to take Sam Francisco to San Francisco. We walked across the Golden Gate Bridge.
We had some really nice heart-to-hearts. We shared some similar challenges and temptations, as well as some that were different. We prayed with and for each other. We have shed tears together. It was extremely difficult to watch him fight the battle from within, which at times he was unable to control. Mental Illness, the struggle is real. Once, he did something that really embarrassed both of us in public. Of course, I still loved him. Then I heard a gentle voice from the LORD, and thought how many times I embarrassed myself and my Heavenly Father in public, knowingly and unknowingly.
To my fellow parents who have lost a child, I only knew about or of your pain; now I personally know and feel your pain. It is beyond words. My wife and I have cried together. I’ve hugged and supported Grace. She has wiped my tears away.
In closing, a very well-known Bible verse, but not very well known for being recited at funerals, yet I find it appropriate, 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18
Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.
Yes, keeping it real, I will be grieving for a long time. I have cried so much that I’ve gotten headaches. Oh, how I miss my son Sam. Yet I rejoice that he is no longer suffering. I pray that his memory and the life he lived will encourage and inspire others to follow Jesus, and I’m thankful for the lessons God used Sam to teach me.
Let the journey of healing begin, which will only be complete when my son and I are reunited in heaven with Jesus.
GOD is Good all the time & all the time GOD is good !!!